The Musings of C.M. Wells
Verbalizing my attempts to better understand myself, the ever-changing world around me, and the people who endure this chaotically beautiful existence here with me – for the benefit and enlightenment of us all.
Piece Of My Story
I spent my childhood burying my nose in books to escape a house filled with emotional turmoil and psychological abuse – diving deep into fantastical worlds and exciting adventures, reaching far beyond my wildest imaginations.
Will to Survive
After being forced to leave home at seventeen, I began to realize just how damaged and broken I was. However, instead of accepting this and allowing myself the chance to work through my traumas to find healing, I did everything I could to fill the void – refusing to spend time alone, pouring myself into a rigorous work schedule, and doing my best to help copious amounts of people.
Painful Wakeup Call
In the spring of 2019, I passed my first kidney stone… And immediately began passing another. In three months, I passed three stones. I struggled to keep up the high-paced life I’d settled into – and failed miserably. The harder I tried, the sicker I became.
Time For A New Life
I was at my lowest point when I became close with one of my coworkers. He soon became my sweetheart – then the father of my child… And finally, my husband.
Finding True Healing
Together, we began to finally work through the traumas and brokenness of our pasts.
We began to experience and explore what it truly means to heal.
As I enter 2020, I see the world with new eyes and fresh passion. By no means do I think I have it all right, nor do I feel that my journey is anywhere near complete – But my hope is that by sharing what little I have to offer, I might help someone else who is struggling as I once was.
Bottom line – we have all been broken. If we don’t heal what hurt us, we will bleed on the ones who did not cut us.
The Journey of Healing is long, hard, and treacherous. It is filled with things we might not want to hear, see, or feel. It never ends – constantly changing directions and teaching you new things.
It is not pleasant.
But it is worth it.
And you don’t have to walk it alone.